Stolen from a few people.
→ "Take the first sentence (or 2) from the first post of each month of 2009. That's your year in review. "

Huzzah! The semester is over. It didn't feel like much... Hm.

I'm starting to wonder if I should take four classes next semester instead of three. The problem is... I don't want to overwork myself. I'm pretty sure I'll be on probation (LAMESAUCE) and I know the more classes I take, the more it's going to cost. My only goal is to continue to bring my measly GPA up. I still have a few more gen ed classes to get out of the way buuut... I'm so sick of gen ed. I want to take classes I want to take. Not because I have to for some stupid requirement. I'm also thinking of doing a double minor instead of a double major. I know I want one of them to be History but the other... I'm still debating. I want something at least a little useful. Hm. We'll see.

Plans for today:
- Go downtown to drop off MK orders.
- Pick up Mary from school (lame).
- Hopefully get started on one of my long awaited writing projects.


That's the goal of mine for break: get a good chunk of writing out of the way. Yeah.

What should I have for lunch?

-- Piph

PS. The layout will change again. The current one I'm not a big fan of the fonts or the post breaks. I just have to keep looking.

I changed my layout to represent our lovely winter weather outside and to get into the winter spirit....

IT IS FUCKING COOOOOOOLD. Our high is only supposed to reach 13 today but it feels much colder. I can't feel my faaaaace. :(

Well, I passed my English class. I got an A on the last paper and an overall C in the class. The smaller assignments are what killed me but whatever. I'm done. That's all that matters. I won't know how I did in my other two classes until the 18th so we'll see. I'm pretty sure I got A's in those two. Either that or high B's. I've done most of the work and have gotten A's on what I did so it shouldn't be too much of a problem.

I'm still trying to find a class to replace Drawing 1. I don't really want to take an art class... I just put it there to fill in space. I want a history course... But the classes I want to take haven't posted their times yet so I'm still waiting on that. I enjoy history. I really do. I love learning what other people did and how they went about their lives. I love learning how their governments worked and how wars were fought. And I love learning about the little things as well... History is not just about dates and events. It's about thinking what would be different if this or that didn't happen. The "So What?" factor as my teacher likes to use.

The table is quite lonely right now... I wish someone would show up but Dave's not coming to campus so he can work on his assignments and everyone else are taking their finals....

Oh, wait. Kurt Cobain showed up. At least someone is here.

Bah, I want Dave here. :<

Now to work on my paper that's due Thursday. Joyyy..

-- Piph

EDIT:

Dinner was very successful in my opinion. It was a little nerve wracking at first but when the ball got rolling, it was very nice. After Dave left, dad said to me, "He's a really nice guy and it was a pleasant dinner." It takes A LOT to get my dad to say that. So I call that a success. :D

Of course, it helped that my mom did a lot of the talking, lol.

Either way, yay!


/// EDIT


Dave's coming over for dinner to meet my parents tonight and we're both a little nervous. It's really just the thought of my dad because we're so unsure what he will do... Whether he'll actually lighten up or just be the grumpy glaring old man trying to protect his daughter. Even Aimee's scared of him... And she's known me longer...

I guess we'll see.

I'm missing Not So Silent Night for this so it better go well, damn it. >:(









... Just kidding, XD.
I'd rather be with Dave.



-- Piph

Mom gave some interesting suggestions yesterday and I'm thinking about running with them. To simply say, as much as I love Colorado, I need out of here. I need to see the world while I'm still young (like i will forevahz be) and I'm going to take every chance to do so. I'll finish out this year and after that... Who knows? I might be in Chicago. I might be in the middle-of-freakin'-no-where-Kansas. We'll see~.

This is my last week of the semester aaaaaand it NEEDS to be over. I have so many papers due this week I might go crazy with exhaustion. The test today was so freaking easy as I knew it would be but it almost seemed TOO easy. Hm. We'll see. Seems like he'll try to challenge us on Wednesday with the second part of the test but who knows. I'm not worried.

Bah, time to work on papers. I am sooo unmotivated... Booo.


-- Piph

PS> COOOOOOUSIN! PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR MAIL THIS WEEK OR NEXT! THERE'S SOMETHING SPEEECIAL FOR YOU! :D

Starting to think I've failed somehow...

I got home about an hour ago and this wave of depression just hit. Thoughts are swarming like wasps and they're keeping me awake. Annoying fuckers...

I want to talk to someone but everyone is in bed by now...

Yes, I am twenty years old and I'm still living at home with no income to really speak of. HOWEVER, that is not to say that I'm not trying. I am a full-time student trying (and struggling) to get through college and I'm struggling to find where I belong. Jobs are scarce and REALLY hard to come by for a girl who has had very minimal experience in a working world. Sorry if I'm not following some societal norm saying that I should have left the house by now. If I had, I would probably be homeless. My parents NEVER had any expectations for me. They flat out told me that they just want to see me make it through. MAKE IT THROUGH FUCKING WHAT? What the hell am I supposed to do?! I'm working towards that lame piece of paper telling me that I just gave away thousands of my parents dollars just so I can go out into the real world... And do what?

I want to travel.
I want a family.
I want a life.

.... Starting to think I'm invoking a panic attack with this ... SHIIIIIIIIIIIIT.

I don't think I'm getting any sleep tonight.
Later will be nicer (hopefully).

I guess I better start those papers if I'm not going to sleep...

The aquarium never happened but the day was not a loss in the least. It was just so nice to be with him for the whole day without a worry in the world. He let's me be me and that's all I could ask for. Although, apparently there's a side to me I never knew existed... He pointed it out and I guess I'm just rolling with it. He's just so fucking amazing! I don't remember the last time I felt this way... There's a euphoria that won't go away nor do I want it too. I was reluctant to even think about leaving but sadly he had work that needed to get done.

I really want to be in his arms right now... Saturday seems so far away...


And Thanksgiving is such a useless holiday. No joke. One should be giving thanks for what they have everyday; not just one day out of the year. And the "first Thanksgiving" never happened the way we are told in school. So fuck that. It should be renamed "The Great Turkey-Nomming." That's right. This does not mean that I'm not grateful for anything... By God, I am so grateful for everything right now, I don't think many really understand it. <3 :)


And because I'm a jerk who likes to steal things; DOOO THIS.

• Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
• I'll respond by asking you five questions.
• You can either update your journal with the answers to the questions, or answer them in comments.

PEACE!
-- Piph

Mmmm, I had a really nice evening with Dave tonight. Went over to his place and watched a couple movies... Although I will never watch POTC the same way again. :P It's been awhile since I've felt this way. I actually feel content with life and driven to make the most of it. He gives me that courage, really.

My desk is finally set up and I can't believe I actually have floorspace... It's weird... Sure I have to go through the massive junk pile that I created when we took my old desk out... Oh, boy. That's going to be a challenge. I need to seriously consider what to get rid of. I'm tired of having so much crap. Eh, will do that in the morning.

The new Doctor Who episode needs to get here, NOW! Just one more month. Just one more month...
And WTF? No new Supernatural episodes until the end of January?! LAME.

Mmm, I can still smell him. I really wish he was right here with me...

-- Piph

2012 was alright. Dave described it as a "just in time" movie and I couldn't agree more. I liked it overall though. It wasn't bad. Just too many characters... And predictable.

Anyways, still sick. In fact, it's gotten worse. Whatever managed to get into my stomach did not want to stay there... Yuck. So I'm stuck on a liquid diet unless I manage to find something that won't rebel against me... I wonder if a piece of toast would work... Ugh. I don't know. I'm just so lethargic right now...

I am going to curl up and take a loooong nap.

-- Piph

 "Sow an act, and you reap a habit; sow a habit, and you reap a character; sow a character, and you reap a destiny."

George Dana Boardman

Men are confusing. I just wanted to get that out. 

I'm debating whether or not I want to go to class. I know I should... he does count for attendance so I guess I'm going. *sigh* Having only one class on Monday's and Wednesday's is hard. Motivational speaking. 

My teacher's must really love me because I got my Natives midterm back yesterday AND JESUS CHRIST 166%!!!! Apparently I gave more information than was required. I DIDN'T KNOW. I WAS JUST FOLLOWING DIRECTIONS! Karma must be on my side right now. Things have actually been going well. Maybe my prayers are finally being answered... It's nice and comforting. I don't have any finals this semester. Just a couple final projects but that's it. School is over in a little over 3 weeks. It's scary yet awesome at the same time. But I fear for a downfall... Just gotta keep fighting and spirits up. I'll ride the good wave out as long as it lasts. :)

Nano is on hold. I hit a major snag and papers are starting to pile up. School is my number one priority. But Nano did allow me to start an awesome story I want to run with more. I love my Trickster. *pets*


-- Piph

  

I am going to make myself a set of short-term and long-term goals this week. :)

-- Piph

PS. Changed layout and icons. Now Dean is all happy that he gets a place on my journal. :D

Classes I will hopefully be taking next semester:

Introduction to Fiction
Photography 1
French 1

Yes, I am going back to French. Something about it is drawing me back in. 

I've been doing a lot of thinking today. I've been thinking of where I want to be and how I'm going to get there. I know I'm not there now. Now, I'm struggling just to keep interest in my college education which has wounded my GPA greatly. I want a different environment. I want a different learning style away from the standard, liberal arts norm. I want a CHALLENGE. 

I also wish my parents actually had expectations for me so I have something to live up to. My mother flat out told me that she never had any expectations for my life. I am someone that likes to be given a basic direction and build everything up from there. But when no direction is given, I am at an extreme loss. 

So, I've had to give myself my own expectations. 

I decided to take control of my own life where I do not want the thoughts of others to have any negative influence over me. I am happy to listen. I love listening to others thoughts and taking them into consideration but I don't have to agree with everything said. My control has started out with me finally starting my own business. More information on that will come later this week.

But the main part of taking control of my life is education and there are two very likely schools to give me what I need. First, is a school most of my friends know that I would love to attend. University of Denver (DU). Only a twenty minute train ride away, many of my friends attend this school and I have visited it on many occasion. It just feels RIGHT. But at the same time, I wanted to explore other options and that is how I happened to come across a school that I think may fit my expectations better: Sarah Lawrence College in Bronxville, NY. I know I could go to DU for nearly 9k cheaper but I don't want to focus on just finances. I WANT EDUCATION and if I have to take out MAJOR loans for it, I will. The more I read about it, the more I feel it would be a great choice for me.  

I'm going to talk to dad about it more later. I asked the school to send more information so I'll be expecting that soon. I want to take my time with it, to make sure I'm making the right decision. We'll see. :)

I just got back up to 10k for Nano and I'm stopping there for now. I know I'm still 3k behind todays goal but I'll be working a shit ton on it this week. I'm hoping to get up to 30k for next weekend. I just got to the more exciting parts of the story so I'm sure I can get there. Much to the dismay of The Table, I'll be spending a shit ton of time in the library with the internet off specifically for Nano. We'll see how it goes. :)

Mmmm, dad is making Basil-Garlic Bread and it smells absolutely lovely. <3
That's what I'll miss the most when I move out. Free food made by those who care for you, lol. 


-- Piph
    

 I am terribly behind on Nano. I got so frustrated earlier this hour that I scrapped EVERYTHING and just decided to start the same story over again. I am back to 2k but I am going to crank everything I can out tonight until my eyes fall out. The prologue still doesn't fit but whatever. I'll rewrite it AGAIN when this is all over with. I know what I need to happen and I can't wait to get to a few of these scenes. The only problem is actually focusing on getting there.

Dad and I are handing out Tootsie Rolls tomorrow for a charity drive we do every year and that will take up 4 hours. But the rest of the day is mine to work on Nano. I'll probably head to Barnes just so I can have a different environment while working on this. I WILL REACH 50K EVEN IF I HAVE TO TYPE OUT THE LAST WORD AT THE LAST SECOND OF THE MONTH! I promised myself that 50k would happen this year. I want to have something to show for myself at the end. 

Back to writing.

-- Piph