THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES

spazz times

Mon, 21 Dec 2009 07:07:45 GMT

Lessee, what is there to write about? Hmm, not much. So let's write about nothing! Yaaaay! Wheeeee!

....

No, I am not high and/or drunk.

I am merely being an insane spazz that feels like I should write about something when I have nothing to write about.

...

Hopefully I get at least ONE free day to myself this week... Looks like that only day will be Wednesday. Tomorrow is gift exchange and Dave. Tuesday I get to be all loopy and high to get the rest of my teeth fixed. Wednesday, nothing as far as I know. Thursday, Christmas Eve which means I'll be dragged to mass. Friday, Christmas. Saturday, start looking for a job again which is booooo. Aaaaaand, yeah.

....

Look! I wrote something! Be proud of me! 8D
Yaaaaay.

-- Piph

///dies

bargh

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 07:42:31 GMT

Okay, so I've been seeing a lot of things for Avatar and have read some pretty good reviews so far... But the thing is, I know nothing about it. Sure, I've seen the commercials and stuff but that doesn't give me much... I dunno. From what I CAN tell from the previews, the CG doesn't impress me all that much. It just looks like a lame video game... But that could just be me. Has anyone else seen it yet? Is it worth seeing?

Okay, Princess and the Frog. I've seen it twice - yes, twice. And overall, I think it's a good movie. It has a decent plot and the jazz tunes are quite catchy - especially Dr. Facilier's. It's definitely Disney going back to their roots. I do have a few iffs about it though. It could have just been me but I felt like some of the songs were too close together and they didn't really help to move the story along... That, and there seemed to be A LOT more "happy" tunes. Too many it seemed. I mean, the movie wasn't as epic as some of the other ones have been BUT JESUS CHRIST THERE WAS NO EPIC FINAL BATTLE FOR ONCE. I mean c'mooon. I know we're in an economy crunch BUT DISNEY CAN AT LEAST AFFORD THE FINAL BATTLE. The dark undertones could have been a little more pronounced as well... I dunno. Good movie. Definitely a classic but It doesn't stick with me as some of the other ones have.

Yeah, I'm definitely not feeling the Christmas spirit this year. Even with all of the Wal Mart commercials and holiday lights and music playing, it's not there. Most of the time I forget it's even Christmas until Dave says something. All I can think about these days are school and our stupid money issues... I wanted to ask for nothing this year. In fact, I did ask for nothing but some people guilted me into telling them ideas. My ultimate gift wish I want one of these years is to bring my multitude of circles together and we just have a good time without the awkwardness. One can dream...

Tomorrow will be the first time in years that I miss Kachi's holiday party. I wasn't all that excited for it to begin with and the last time I was with them I felt like I didn't even know them. So whatever. I'm hopefully spending tomorrow night with Dave anyways. At least he can cheer me up from this stupid funk that I've been in.

My GPA went up JUUUUST slightly. Not enough though to get me out of Probation for next semester but just enough so that I just have to pull off at least all B's then I'll be out of it for the following semester. The only class that I see myself having issues with is French but I already have a tutor set up so it shouldn't be too much of a problem. I still need to find a class to replace Drawing...

-- Piph.

Movie: The Princess and the Frog

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 00:40:38 GMT

GOING TO SEE PRINCESS AND THE FROG ~~(again)~~ TONIGHT!

The Battlefield is the Only Way We Feel Alive

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 05:40:15 GMT

Cat hair is floating in the air and sporadically a strand of hair will stick to my screen which makes typing kind of difficult when a sudden black line appears out of the corner of my eye...

I'll most likely be settling for a couple of loans for next semester. It scares me but so does everything else at the moment so...

The whole thought of not being able to go back next semester because we can't even afford a cheaper school has made me do a bit of thinking. Is it even possible for me to go to a higher level school or will that just remain a dream? And all because we can't afford a few grand each semester... Yes, money is tight for everyone but... I don't know. I think this whole thing has unmotivated me for a lot of things education wise. I know I shouldn't let it but I don't want to put my family in a situation where we'll be scrambling for pennies even more.

One of the reason's why this thing has unmotivated me is because I realized, I don't know what I want to be doing. I honestly haven't found anything I'm really passionate about and it's been apparent I haven't written much for myself over the past year. Most of my folders contain essays for school. All A's and B's save for one D because I turned it in late and wasn't finished with it to begin with. Yes, writing is my strong point but the passion has kind of diminished into a flicker. I don't know.

I just don't really know what I want to pursue anymore. I would rather just be traveling, working small-time jobs, and being me. But at the same time, I want to learn. I want a higher education. But what's better? Life education or the one where you're sitting in classroom, forking over a ton of money, just to prove you did something with your time so job opportunities will look at you in awe? I want a mix of both. That much I know for sure.

I dunno. I guess I'll see when the time comes.

My dentist appointment had to be postponed because the gal who was going to be working on my teeth was too sick to come in. Booo... I want my teeth fixed now. Now I have to wait another week. Lamesauce.

I hate staring at my bank account because I know there's nothing in there. Just a couple of dollars. It's making Christmas shopping really difficult which means I'll have to ask for money... $40 should get me by because I already bought part of it today for Dave. And I have most of what I need for Shel and Aimee. Just need a few more things....

That's what one of my New Year resolutions will be: EARN AND SAVE MONEY.

I want to be in the Chicago area next summer. Don't ask me, "Why Chicago?" I honestly can't answer definitively. All I know is that something is dragging me towards it and dad said the only way I can go is if I had money of my own to do so. I will be in Chicago (or at least the area) next summer. Just wait and see.

I want someone to cuddle with and fall asleep with right now... Soon. That much I know for sure. It's enough for me to look forward to. :)

~~... I need new mood icons.~~

EDIT///

Layout and mood theme has been changed... We'll see how long I last with this layout.

///EDIT

-- Piph

dream

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 03:15:43 GMT

This is just me trying to remember an awkward dream I had last night:

I had a dream, where I was on this crescent moon shaped island (I know there's a technical term for this but bear with me) and the Earth was having environmental issues where the sea was rising and falling too fast in a consistent order. And the days were no longer twenty-four hours long. They were twelve hours at most. It would not stay calm. On this island, humans and monkeys lived in content with each other but as always, there's always one person who disagreed with the current way of life. There was no king because our previous king was a monk-like monkey (yeah, weeeird) who had been cast in stone and lay dormant for hundreds of years. Many of the inhabitants blamed the weather situation on the kings absence. Small riots began to break out because of the one -I don't even know what he was. He was like a cross between a full monkey and full human. HALF-BREED. - who disagreed and our very way of life was beginning to crumble.

Now in this dream, I was human but also had a special gift. Water was my sanctuary and I could swim for hours without getting tired. Many of the peoples thought that I was a gift from the sea gods. They thought that perhaps I would be the one to calm the sea once more and restore a sense of balance. Others, like the half-breed, wanted to believe I was a curse. I was not aware of my other ability - Other than speed and agility within water and on land like a dancer, I held in the palm of my hand the ability to will something into life. I could create invisible blockades and hold balls of water and light in my hands. This came in use later on in the dream.

At some point in the dream, during another rise of the sea, the half-breed - realizing his riots weren't working, challenged me. He wanted to test my abilities and to sea if I could survive what he wanted to sea. I don't remember exactly test after test with him but the last one was a hand-to-hand fight on a smaller piece of land separated from the mainland. I want already exhausted but somehow managed to have an easy time against him. I called realized my power and called upon the water for held against him. We fought and fought and somehow, at one moment, I just knew that I didn't need to kill him for things to end. I eluded him and slid down the island into the sea and before he could come in after me, I released a barrier around the island. He was not coming off the island for the rest of his life and no one dared to go in.

When I swam back to the mainland, all I wanted was sleep but the inhabitants thought it best to celebrate at that exact moment and a few of them who I assume were friends wanted me to climb the cliffside up towards the Monkey King's statue in the high temple where no one dared to go for so many years. I did and studied the statue. I never thought of him as my King and as I approached the giant - AND I MEAN GIANT LIKE 50 FEET GIANT - stone, with one touch the stone began to crack and smoke and the Great King lived once more. He had ruby eyes and as he stared at me, I was flooded with fear but a sense of peace at the same time.

He then spoke, "You are special, young one. I am no longer King but that doesn't make you one either. You must pass my three tests before that could happen."

Yeah, I was frightened. For one, I never thought myself as royal and this sudden piece made me frightened even more.

"Do not be afraid," The Monkey King spoke. "You were born for this. The gods sought to it for my time ended long ago. You have proven your worth to our people. Now, prove it to me."

Needless to say, I passed the tests and I was made King - YES, KING - of the land. The other King apparently would just mentor me in the ways of royalty until it was his time to leave.

......
And that's when I woke up.
I found the dream interesting enough to share.
I might make it into a future story. :)

-- Piph

Just Knock it Off

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 02:34:15 GMT

Greeeeat....

Dad just informed me that I might not be able to go to school next semester unless I find loans and scholarships and all that crap. We're already using FAFSA and COF so... I don't know. Loans scare me and most of the scholarship money has already been given out from my understanding... Damn it. I was actually looking forward to next semester. Less drama and classes that I wanted to take. Fuuuuuck. I'm tired of being behind. And school is my main social network. If I lost that... I don't know what I would do with myself. And Metro's supposed to be the cheap school! Pfft... Not for this family...

I guess I'll just have to do a bit of digging.

BTW, I am selling Mary Kay now. If anything strikes your fancy and you're interested in purchasing something (Satin Hands and Satin Lips are the number one sellers - ESPECIALLY around winter times. They do wonders.) drop me a line at sarah [dot] anne [dot] fitzpatrick [AT] gmail [dot] com . :)

-- Piph

what do you see

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 23:19:10 GMT

I keep thinking that I have a paper to write and then I remember that I'm on break.

Jamie's party last night was fun. It was just nice to hang out with good friends and meet new people at the same time. The food was excellent and there were enough laughs and human contact to go around.

Christmas is in less then two weeks and I am so behind on everything. This week is going to be hectic for sure. I have something going on everyday this week. Thursday is still up in the air and not official yet but we'll see. Parties are going on next weekend and I dunno... I'm not feeling the holiday spirit. It's just not with me this year. I'm sure it'll be here as we get closer to Christmas but as it stands, it's pretty much nonexistent.

Today was a pretty lame day. Very unproductive. Besides going to lunch with the rents and picking up my little sister, I've just been sitting in my room browsing the internet for nothing in particular and playing solitaire. I'm just killing time with nothing. I might go downstairs and play a little Rockband but I'm still wondering if I have enough motivation to do so. Or I might just pop in a movie I haven't seen in awhile or something.

I've just been so tired as of late. It's like I don't have enough energy for anything. Caffeine isn't helping and even though I'm eating right, it's not giving me the energy I need. I wonder if it's because my sleeping schedule has been a little off lately. Of course, it's not like I had one to begin with... I don't know. It's not depression. That much I know for sure. If I continue to feel this way or if it gets worse, I might call the doctor up for advice. Of course, that's a pretty big might. We'll see.

I just feel like becoming a bear and going into hibernation until the spring semester starts.

I want new clothes...

--- Piph

PS. CUZ, HAVE YOU RECEIVED YOUR GIFT YET?! :0

PSS. THE NEW(ish) 30 SECONDS TO MARS ALBUM IS AWWWESOME~!

Meme: Year in Review

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 23:52:48 GMT

Stolen from a few people.
→ "Take the first sentence (or 2) from the first post of each month of 2009. That's your year in review. "

January

Okay, so happy belated New Year. Well... not really late. It's only a day or two into 2009. I say I'm still in the clear. lol

February

I lost my satin, black ribbon at a restaurant tonight...

I am not happy...

March

Um, hey? 'Sup? Not much? Okay. Me neither.

April

The list of sellables will be up most likely this weekend. I'm just swamped this week in school work so I haven't had the time.

[Yeah, that never happened.]

May

My picks ranks after the race:

Musket Man: 3rd

General Quarters: 10th

Mr. Hot Stuff: 15th

AT LEAST I GOT ON THE BOARD! Lol

June

I need out. I need to leave.

Something is keeping me rooted.

Get me out. Please.

July

There was A LOT of lightning tonight. The rain was just a pass-through but the lightning.... It really got me excited for no reason.

August

Last night in Michigan and honestly, I don't want to go back to Colorado.

September

Sick sick sick.

October

Just because I'm so proud of my friend and Megan is just so fuckin' awesome as is.

November

Nano has started well, with all things considering.

December

Dinner was very successful in my opinion.

No Day's To Myself

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 16:44:30 GMT

Huzzah! The semester is over. It didn't feel like much... Hm.

I'm starting to wonder if I should take four classes next semester instead of three. The problem is... I don't want to overwork myself. I'm pretty sure I'll be on probation (LAMESAUCE) and I know the more classes I take, the more it's going to cost. My only goal is to continue to bring my measly GPA up. I still have a few more gen ed classes to get out of the way buuut... I'm so sick of gen ed. I want to take classes I want to take. Not because I have to for some stupid requirement. I'm also thinking of doing a double minor instead of a double major. I know I want one of them to be History but the other... I'm still debating. I want something at least a little useful. Hm. We'll see.

Plans for today:
- Go downtown to drop off MK orders.
- Pick up Mary from school (lame).
- Hopefully get started on one of my long awaited writing projects.

That's the goal of mine for break: get a good chunk of writing out of the way. Yeah.

What should I have for lunch?

-- Piph

PS. The layout will change again. The current one I'm not a big fan of the fonts or the post breaks. I just have to keep looking.

My Story's Not The Only One

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 17:29:24 GMT

I changed my layout to represent our lovely winter weather outside and to get into the winter spirit....

IT IS FUCKING COOOOOOOLD. Our high is only supposed to reach 13 today but it feels much colder. I can't feel my faaaaace. :(

Well, I passed my English class. I got an A on the last paper and an overall C in the class. The smaller assignments are what killed me but whatever. I'm done. That's all that matters. I won't know how I did in my other two classes until the 18th so we'll see. I'm pretty sure I got A's in those two. Either that or high B's. I've done most of the work and have gotten A's on what I did so it shouldn't be too much of a problem.

I'm still trying to find a class to replace Drawing 1. I don't really want to take an art class... I just put it there to fill in space. I want a history course... But the classes I want to take haven't posted their times yet so I'm still waiting on that. I enjoy history. I really do. I love learning what other people did and how they went about their lives. I love learning how their governments worked and how wars were fought. And I love learning about the little things as well... History is not just about dates and events. It's about thinking what would be different if this or that didn't happen. The "So What?" factor as my teacher likes to use.

The table is quite lonely right now... I wish someone would show up but Dave's not coming to campus so he can work on his assignments and everyone else are taking their finals....

Oh, wait. Kurt Cobain showed up. At least someone is here.

Bah, I want Dave here. :<

Now to work on my paper that's due Thursday. Joyyy..

-- Piph

(._.)

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 19:08:18 GMT

EDIT:

Dinner was very successful in my opinion. It was a little nerve wracking at first but when the ball got rolling, it was very nice. After Dave left, dad said to me, "He's a really nice guy and it was a pleasant dinner." It takes A LOT to get my dad to say that. So I call that a success. :D

Of course, it helped that my mom did a lot of the talking, lol.

Either way, yay!

/// EDIT

Dave's coming over for dinner to meet my parents tonight and we're both a little nervous. It's really just the thought of my dad because we're so unsure what he will do... Whether he'll actually lighten up or just be the grumpy glaring old man trying to protect his daughter. Even Aimee's scared of him... And she's known me longer...

I guess we'll see.

I'm missing Not So Silent Night for this so it better go well, damn it. >:(

... Just kidding, XD.
I'd rather be with Dave.

-- Piph

21 Guns

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 01:20:21 GMT

Mom gave some interesting suggestions yesterday and I'm thinking about running with them. To simply say, as much as I love Colorado, I need out of here. I need to see the world while I'm still young (like i will forevahz be) and I'm going to take every chance to do so. I'll finish out this year and after that... Who knows? I might be in Chicago. I might be in the middle-of-freakin'-no-where-Kansas. We'll see~.

This is my last week of the semester aaaaaand it NEEDS to be over. I have so many papers due this week I might go crazy with exhaustion. The test today was so freaking easy as I knew it would be but it almost seemed TOO easy. Hm. We'll see. Seems like he'll try to challenge us on Wednesday with the second part of the test but who knows. I'm not worried.

Bah, time to work on papers. I am sooo unmotivated... Booo.

-- Piph

PS> COOOOOOUSIN! PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR MAIL THIS WEEK OR NEXT! THERE'S SOMETHING SPEEECIAL FOR YOU! :D

1, 2, 3, 4

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 19:45:42 GMT

The world works to a beat, and I, like many others, have my own timeline.
I just have to follow it.

I'll keep pushing and I cannot be afraid of mistakes. They happen, and when they do, I have to learn.
Questioning and learning helps life move forward.

But sometimes, you have to take two steps back before the beat can continue.

-- Piph

Someday I Will Make You Mine

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 09:49:55 GMT

Starting to think I've failed somehow...

I got home about an hour ago and this wave of depression just hit. Thoughts are swarming like wasps and they're keeping me awake. Annoying fuckers...

I want to talk to someone but everyone is in bed by now...

Yes, I am twenty years old and I'm still living at home with no income to really speak of. HOWEVER, that is not to say that I'm not trying. I am a full-time student trying (and struggling) to get through college and I'm struggling to find where I belong. Jobs are scarce and REALLY hard to come by for a girl who has had very minimal experience in a working world. Sorry if I'm not following some societal norm saying that I should have left the house by now. If I had, I would probably be homeless. My parents NEVER had any expectations for me. They flat out told me that they just want to see me make it through. MAKE IT THROUGH FUCKING WHAT? What the hell am I supposed to do?! I'm working towards that lame piece of paper telling me that I just gave away thousands of my parents dollars just so I can go out into the real world... And do what?

I want to travel.
I want a family.
I want a life.

.... Starting to think I'm invoking a panic attack with this ... SHIIIIIIIIIIIIT.

I don't think I'm getting any sleep tonight.
Later will be nicer (hopefully).

I guess I better start those papers if I'm not going to sleep...

Euphoria

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 06:17:30 GMT

The aquarium never happened but the day was not a loss in the least. It was just so nice to be with him for the whole day without a worry in the world. He let's me be me and that's all I could ask for. Although, apparently there's a side to me I never knew existed... He pointed it out and I guess I'm just rolling with it. He's just so fucking amazing! I don't remember the last time I felt this way... There's a euphoria that won't go away nor do I want it too. I was reluctant to even think about leaving but sadly he had work that needed to get done.

I really want to be in his arms right now... Saturday seems so far away...

And Thanksgiving is such a useless holiday. No joke. One should be giving thanks for what they have everyday; not just one day out of the year. And the "first Thanksgiving" never happened the way we are told in school. So fuck that. It should be renamed "The Great Turkey-Nomming." That's right. This does not mean that I'm not grateful for anything... By God, I am so grateful for everything right now, I don't think many really understand it. <3 :)

And because I'm a jerk who likes to steal things; DOOO THIS.

Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
I'll respond by asking you five questions.
You can either update your journal with the answers to the questions, or answer them in comments.

PEACE!
-- Piph

Distractions

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 20:16:48 GMT

Dylan does not want me to edit. Instead, he wants to play with the pen.

Last night was alright. I got to hang with me Mafia and had a blast bowling. Team Sparkle against Team Werewolf. It was fun but a little awkward... I kind of felt like I didn't even know them and I was just along for a ride. I couldn't seem to get involved in much of any conversation because most of the time the conversation revolved around things that I was scratching my head over. Hmm... Dunno.

I'm excited for tomorrow though. Aquarium and the whole day with Dave. Yaaay~ :D At least I have something to look forward to. I also have to print out the brining mixture for the turkey for mom just in case I'm not home in time to put it together. I want a juicy turkey this year DAMN IT. Enough of the dry stuff.

I should probably get something to eat... I wonder if mom will get me some sushi... Mmm, sushi.

-- Piph

Some Meme

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 19:06:43 GMT

You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.

1.First Name:

Sarah. It basically means “princess” in every language but I am FAR from calling myself a princess. I would rather be the general that leads hells army against the forces of heaven and earn my thrown on top of a mountain of skulls and candy with Dave by my side. I can dream. Oh, and some people call me Piph.

2.Age:

Twenty. It's the age after nineteen and so far it's been alright. I'm no longer a teenager and things have been going pretty well. I'm a Virgo and share the same birthday with Stephen King. Not much else to say.

3.Location:

Currently I'm in Aurora, Colorado. I love my home state but I dream to travel elsewhere. I dream to see what all is out there for me and if that includes finding a new home, so be it. But my heart will remain with beautiful Colorado until I die. Then the heart is useless and will probably rot in the ground if it's not donated to science which I hope it isn't. They don't want my particular heart.

4.Occupation:

I am a full time college student with a part-time Mary Kay business on the side. Um... Not much else to say about that... Uh... Or I could go a different route and say that I'm a part-time lover but a full time friend but Dave might question that... One day I want to have my novels on the bestselling shelves at bookstores while being a big-time critical editor somewhere. Once more, I can dream.

5.Partner?:

Dave. He couldn't have come at a more important time in my life and uh... any words I think of to describe him seem so insignificant to what he really mounts up to. It's cheesy to say he's everything to me right now but it's true. So, yeah... Dave.

6.Kids:

I work REALLY well with kids. I am always babysitting my cousins kids when we're all together and one of them already considers me his second mother. I have always known since I was a wee little thing that I've wanted to be a mother. Someday I will be and I know it. Hopefully, I'll have a boy because I don't think I would do well with girls but it's not me who decides that, :P.

7.Brothers/Sisters:

I am the oldest with a younger sister. We are six years apart so it's been rough for me to get along with her. We're slowly getting there. Unfortunately, her teenage sass is coming out so it might be a little while longer until we can really get along. She's alright overall.

8.Pets:

Two cats who are boys and who are twins. They are protective of each other and anyone who isn't me they are hesitant of. Dylan thinks he has a girlfriend. My cat's are indoor cats and there's been a female cat that has been coming around that sits outside our kitchen window when Dylan is there. They stare at each other and Dylan get's all perky when she's there. It's interesting to watch. Twix just likes to glare at everything.

9.List 3-5 biggest things going on in your life right now:

1. Dave. Do I need to explain him again?

2. College. It's been REALLY stressful and I'm pretty sure I won't finish when I'm supposed to but whatever. Education is important and this means more time with the Table and friends.

3. My Mary Kay business. It's a blessing and a curse. I'm new to it all but the philosophy is amazing and I couldn't have picked a better company to be with right now.

4. Finally taking control of my own life and the 3 things mentioned up there are helping me achieve that.

10.Parents:

I have a mom and a dad who are married and who are quite conservative. Both come from Catholic families of six kids but they're alright to be around. They love each other like crazy. I like the traditional sides of the families and they're alright to be around. Dad more-so than mom. He get's me and he understands I'm an adult who needs to make my own decisions. Mom on the other hand... Yeah, she doesn't want to see me grow up but for feminine stuff I go to her (obviously).

11.Who are some of your closest friends?:

Um, it would be insulting if I only named a few. Some of them read this journal and others are not aware that I even have one. The friends I have are all close to me in some way or another and I wouldn't trade them for anything. .

We Haven't Had Enough

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 07:36:34 GMT

Mmmm, I had a really nice evening with Dave tonight. Went over to his place and watched a couple movies... Although I will never watch POTC the same way again. :P It's been awhile since I've felt this way. I actually feel content with life and driven to make the most of it. He gives me that courage, really.

My desk is finally set up and I can't believe I actually have floorspace... It's weird... Sure I have to go through the massive junk pile that I created when we took my old desk out... Oh, boy. That's going to be a challenge. I need to seriously consider what to get rid of. I'm tired of having so much crap. Eh, will do that in the morning.

The new Doctor Who episode needs to get here, NOW! Just one more month. Just one more month...
And WTF? No new Supernatural episodes until the end of January?! LAME.

Mmm, I can still smell him. I really wish he was right here with me...

-- Piph

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 17:44:47 GMT

2012 was alright. Dave described it as a "just in time" movie and I couldn't agree more. I liked it overall though. It wasn't bad. Just too many characters... And predictable.

Anyways, still sick. In fact, it's gotten worse. Whatever managed to get into my stomach did not want to stay there... Yuck. So I'm stuck on a liquid diet unless I manage to find something that won't rebel against me... I wonder if a piece of toast would work... Ugh. I don't know. I'm just so lethargic right now...

I am going to curl up and take a loooong nap.

-- Piph

1, 2, 3, 4

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 00:02:53 GMT

He actually called me instead of texting me and I'm not going to lie, it was really nice. :3

So, I'm sitting here watching Looney Tunes (quality television, I know :D), knowing I should be doing my essays that are due in the next couple of days, but I just can't find the motivation to do so. I've been sick this weekend and today I'm just really weak. Just looking at food has made my stomach churn. I've managed to eat... less than a cup of soup in the past two days. I managed to snack a bit Friday night but I think that's because I was nervous. That anxiety... Sometimes I just want to kick it in the face. Yeeeah.

But I will have fun tonight.
God, I feel like I should be purring, I'm so happy.

-- Piph

PS. I HIGHLY suggest downloading or streaming Ink if you haven't yet. So awesome. :)

The Good and the Bad

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 17:29:27 GMT

Things that have been awesome this week:

> 96% on a test I didn't even finish
> No epic drama at The Table
> Finding my possible dream school
> 166% on my Natives midterm
> Teacher giving me an extra day to turn in my paper because I accidentally gave her the wrong copy
> Realizing that for the first time, I could pull off all A's.
> My business debut last night and realizing that I could so pull this off.
> Dave asking me out and me saying yes (<- my personal favorite)

Things that are not so awesome:

> Panic attacks
> Being unable to eat anything because of the anxiety
> I am now sick with something that I think is a result of the anxiety
> I'm stuck home alone with no one to cuddle

... I DON'T WANT TO BE SICK FOR TOMORROW. ;-;
I am going to curl up in bed all day and pray that whatever this is goes away by then.

-- Piph

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 05:13:01 GMT

I'll say it again;
MEN ARE FREAKING CONFUSING.

Move Right Through

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 16:43:10 GMT

"Sow an act, and you reap a habit; sow a habit, and you reap a character; sow a character, and you reap a destiny."

George Dana Boardman

Men are confusing. I just wanted to get that out.

I'm debating whether or not I want to go to class. I know I should... he does count for attendance so I guess I'm going. *sigh* Having only one class on Monday's and Wednesday's is hard. Motivational speaking.

My teacher's must really love me because I got my Natives midterm back yesterday AND JESUS CHRIST 166%!!!! Apparently I gave more information than was required. I DIDN'T KNOW. I WAS JUST FOLLOWING DIRECTIONS! Karma must be on my side right now. Things have actually been going well. Maybe my prayers are finally being answered... It's nice and comforting. I don't have any finals this semester. Just a couple final projects but that's it. School is over in a little over 3 weeks. It's scary yet awesome at the same time. But I fear for a downfall... Just gotta keep fighting and spirits up. I'll ride the good wave out as long as it lasts. :)

Nano is on hold. I hit a major snag and papers are starting to pile up. School is my number one priority. But Nano did allow me to start an awesome story I want to run with more. I love my Trickster. *pets*

-- Piph

Time to Begin

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 04:22:31 GMT

"The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live."

Elbert Hubbard

I didn't get into Photography like I wanted because of some pre-req I was not aware of, but WHATEVS. So I signed up for Drawing I: Black and White unless I happen to find something better. I wouldn't mind taking a history course but all of the ones I want are reserved for seniors so that's a no-go for now.

Speaking of history, HOW THE HELL WAS I ABLE TO GET A 96 ON MY TEST WHEN I DIDN'T EVEN COMPLETE THE DAMN THING?! I didn't study. I know I didn't give the best answers because they were very convoluted. I was suffering from insomnia that week... Someone, explain this to me. Probably just lucky grading, I guess. But seriously!? Was he on meth when he was grading? I'm not complaining; I just don't think that I earned it. Hm...

Essay exam in the morning and I haven't studied an ounce for it. She's making it out to be this really hard and difficult thing but I know better. It'll be difficult to most students in the class, sure. But an essay is an essay and she can't take off for me speaking my mind. If she does, there will be a very mad Piph looking to take an ax and terrorize the neighbors in full on zombie garb. Fun fun.

I wrote... maybe a paragraph or two for Nano today. And I realized something else while going through my notes: I write my notes like a very rough screenplay. I just thought it was interesting... Hm. Thoughts for the future, maybe? We'll see.

Long-term goals are briefly written out. If all goes well, I want to start at Sarah Lawrence in the fall of 2011. I just need that information to come in the mail soon... And now I need to lay out short-term goals. Starting with the exam tomorrow. :)

-- Piph

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 05:15:00 GMT

"It is not enough to take steps which may some day lead to a goal; each step must be itself a goal and a step likewise."

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

I am going to make myself a set of short-term and long-term goals this week. :)

-- Piph

PS. Changed layout and icons. Now Dean is all happy that he gets a place on my journal. :D